There was a parent in the audience that was a speech therapist. She's been one for 11 years and similar to me, her son is non-verbal. She spoke of her difficulties of communicating with her son, of knowing if his needs are being met. And I thought that if she felt that way, a pro in the field, how am I supposed to feel empowered? If my 10 plus years in the field of working with children and families were not experience enough for me to get it together. I cried as she spoke because I haven't met a parent in my same moment, with a non-verbal child. It's hard to know if you're doing right by them. A parent works so hard at this and when there is little progress, you just want to give up.
I didn't get a chance to speak to this parent. I was THAT emotional and I feel that I needed to hide it from my husband. To this day, he's shut down. I'm at this alone. I read the books, research the information and reach out to the teachers. And yes, men have a hard time not being able to fix things but we'll fail if we're not united.